I Get Lower Insurance!

Everyone has a birthday every year. It's the most exciting thing, day, event as a kid, teenager and even in the early 20's. Always something to look forward to: getting to play in the big kid playground, going up to middle school, high school, driving, buying cigarettes (which is VERY BAD FOR YOU!), and best of all, having happy hour at 21+ places. But now that I've been bumped up to the other side of the 20's, I can definitely tell. Especially from this past weekend, it is proof that I am not 21 anymore.

I remember my 21st birthday being the first time drinking. I actually waited until I turned 21! I was the infamous DD and "water-shot taker." I was still standing after 12 shots and nothing phased me. Actually by the end of the party, I was cleaning!

This past weekend for my 25th, I had a total of 4 shots and ... I was done by the end of the night. The next morning I was struggling all day with Tuleng. I felt delirious, nauseous, tired, exhausted, lazy, and... out of it. I finally felt normal by 6pm. -___- Oh how different age makes it. I guess it's time to go to bed early, take vitamins, workout, eat healthier, and drink less? Anyway, all in all, I had a great weekend and thank you to everyone who showed me love whether it was via Facebook, Instagram, text and/or phone call, coming to dinner and/or Citrus! <3

I MISSED MARICEL THIS BIRTHDAY THE MOST! She flew in last year for my birthday from Vegas, but couldn't this year. She called, left a vmail, texted, and called again at the end of the night to see how I was! Sweetest girl!! LOVE YOU! :)

21st birthday at Addison's house.

Black & White Party and I wore red along with the red cups. 

Addison's parents were kind enough to let me throw my 21st there. 

I miss everyone!!! This is definitely the original group! Addison's dad was the one to get us all together to take this picture. 

25th birthday at Citrus! 

I definitely forgot to take pictures while everyone was there. But also hard cause people were in and out all night. But these were the ones that stayed til' the end for me to remember to take a group picture! 

Snow shmow fo sho

With all these constant uploads of snow this, snow that, look how much snow I have, look what I made with snow, look what I'm doing in the snow, I'll be another additive and talk about snow. haha! Okay, maybe not a lot. Just a little bit. :P

As most of us are, we are all kind of stuck inside our homes, or wherever we were at when the snow happened. And in a few days, we start to have cabin fever! Or maybe a few hours for people who can't stand to be in 1 place for a long time... Today was only my 24th hour of being stuck inside and I was itching to go out! My roommates and I decided to go out and get some fresh air, snow inside our pants, make some snow angels, and to just touch the snow. Something about the snow makes everything serene, calm, pure, precious, and quiet. The entire neighborhood lights up even though it's past sunset and the sky becomes a midnight blue the entire night.

No one really likes being told what to do. So when we have no choice but to stay home, it starts to get aggravating. Missing work/school/volunteer is fun for a day, or two, or three. But after awhile, not having the option to do what we want, when we want, starts to ....mco&(@e%@4^@#(fmvkajsdf;ljk get annoying. When we have the option, we want to be home all the time; even when we are, it's not aggravating. It's funny how we are the way we are...

Anyway, I visited my boyfriend again to LA for MLK/his birthday! It worked out perfectly. And this time, my roommate and her boyfriend joined as well! All we did this past weekend was drive, eat, drive, eat, sleep, repeat. Normally we go to Whistler every MLK weekend but this was a different year since we didn't want to plan a huge trip again!

 At Elevate for Tuleng's Birthday! 

 Santa Monica with Kujo, Krystal, and Tuleng

 The view of LA from the Getty

 Playing outside in the snow today with Allison/Krystal (roommates)!

It's rare for us 3 to be together since we're all so busy! 

STAY SAFE OUT THERE EVERYONE! If possible, just stay home and reduce the number of accidents! Heard there were over 700 accidents yesterday (Wednesday)! 

Make that Paperrr

Success. We all want to be "successful" when we "grow up." Well, most of my friends and I are considered grown ups... so I guess we should already be successful? But what does it even mean to be successful?

I believe being successful is not how much you have, how much money you make, or what you own. But rather what you have conquered, overcome and achieved in life. The short/long term goals that we set for ourselves and what we do to execute those will determine how successful we are. It's great to have goals to have lots of monies and enough of it to throw it in a club. :) But it's funny how this world has impelled us into thinking money = success. Money can get us far in this world. And without it, we really can't do much. I swear, the rich get richer while the poor get poorer (most cases). [Kind of off subject: The other day I had a customer who came in and bought 7 items from me at Nordstrom. And spent $8k like it was grocery shopping in the "Manager's Special" aisle.]

It's hard to think that we're successful when we're living paycheck to paycheck, eating crumbs off of our counters, buying food at 711 or even saving our McChicken from McDonald's for 2 separate meals. Rather that's more of a comfort level than being successful? Idk... But to a degree, YES! Success = how much money is sitting in your bank account. But it's not everything. So don't ever feel like you aren't successful just cause you can't live comfortably, eat gourmet foods, buy nice designer clothes, and spend money as if you grow it yourself.

Being content and grateful for what you have no matter what + optimism can boost your idea of what "success" is!

HAPPY CHRISTMAS! and MERRY NEW YEAR! :)

All I Want for Christmas...

So I know I'm not the best girl. Nor the nicest. However, I do think I deserve some things I want... just because I try to be green throughout the year more than some people. :)

-Pilot G-2 07 pens in black
-A new chain for my Chanel necklace. Allison got it for me as my 21st birthday and the chain is wearing out.
-Starbucks gift cards
-Grocery gift cards
-Sonicare
-Automatic toilet bowl cleaner  (they're the white things you drop inside the tank that look like a giant mint)
-Alcohol (This can always be used. Preferably Goose or Effen, please!)
-21-22" TV. Right now, this is my TV and it's been my TV for 9 years... haha
-DVD player to go with it? Currently my DVD player is broken and won't open so a Friends disc has been inside for over 1.5 years.
-Rechargeable batteries for AA and AAA
-Seche Vite top coat
-Glue gun refills
-Brita filters
-Hot yoga gift cards to this place (THIS IS SUPER SUPER USEFUL TO ME!!)
-Electric kettle. This is the one I would dream of.. but there are others that are generic brands.
-Toaster Oven. Any kind really... to make my wings and breakfast sandwiches is what I want.
-Chocolate covered gummy bears
-A massage
-Bubble bath. Preferably lavender scent. But please no other bath/lotion stuff!

Christmas is so near and this is the first time I am not prepared... I have so much to do in so little time! Happy Holidays, everyone! :)

Effortless

You get what you put in (twss = that's what she said). The amount of effort you put in is what you get out (twss. haha okay, I'll stop). Often times people sit there and wonder why their life isn't changing or isn't moving forward. Well, if you keep doing what you're always doing, you're going to get what you always get.

Putting effort into something means we have to care about it; whether it's a class we're taking, a relationship, wrapping a Christmas gift or even giving our bouquet of flowers fresh water with flower food. It's worth putting effort into something because we want it/get what we want/it's meaningful to us. And often times, the result of something will show how much we cared about it. But there's also the side of the inevitable where things just fall apart and die over time (aka flowers. And some other things).

But to encounter something where it's effortless to be great is even better! Or to make it work, be good and successful without much effort. Okay, I am rambling... But when you find something where it comes natural and becomes effortless... it's a great feeling. Kind of like those people who just know how to be a handy man and just put their hands on a broken item and in 10 minutes, it's all fixed! It's effortless to them and they're great at it. Or perhaps someone who can magically write an amazing paper in an hour when it takes me 3. -__-

I guess this can all be a category of something called passion. Once you find your passion, it becomes effortless to be awesome at it. And when that happens, it's an amazing feeling because who doesn't want to do something that's so effortless? AND enjoy it?

Then once in awhile you come across people in life where you just click and it's effortless to make it work. There's those friends where a lot of work has to be put in to even have a relationship. Yet once in a blue moon, you find people where everything falls into place without much struggle. And those are always worth keeping around. <3 People whom you can be yourself around, don't need to impress, and be comfortable around is a blessing. It's a small chance to find these good ones but when you do, put effort into the effortless relationship to keep it going. :)

I really shouldn't be blogging when I have so much to do during finals week! sigh... -__-

p.s. if you change your flower water daily with a little bit of flower food, your flowers will last 7+ days!

MAN UP!

If you did something wrong (men or women), just man up and apologize. Stop making excuses to go around it. Knowing how to apologize shows character. Learn to come to your mistakes whether it was intentional or unintentional. And apologize sincerely. The end.

Pet Peeves

Seems very anal yet minimal... But Krystal and I have conversations (quite often) about our pet peeves. Number one thing for us: GRAMMAR! It's nothing crazy. Just basics.

People, if you are above 5th grade, please know your:

-There, their, they're.
-Your and you're. Tip: You're means YOU ARE.
-Would of is actually would have.
-Lose: Opposite of win. Loose: Not tight.
-It's sepArate. Not seperate.
-A lot is 2 words. not 1.
-Anyways is not a word. It's anyway.
-Spelling words in a ridiculous way like we did back in middle skool is not kewl. (pun intended)
-Definitely does not have an "A" (definately).
-"Then" is used when talking about a sequence. "Than" is used when comparing.

There is a lot more but these are basic things that are mostly common. So, go ahead and learn. If you need help, I would be more than happy to explain everything thoroughly for anyone. :)

Easier Said Than Done

Worry Less.
Smile more.
Accept criticism.
Take responsibility.
Listen.
Love.
Don't hate.
Embrace change.
Feel good anyway.

Love the life you live. Live the life you love. 

Baby, it's Cold Outside

Being in the Pacific Northwest has its ups and downs. Well, first off, we get all 4 seasons so we get to see rain, snow, hail, shine, and the trees changing colors magically. When we have a beautiful day, we take it as a blessing and maximize our day with it. When it snows, we think of excuses to call-in work/school and say “we can’t make it” to just to play in it.

There’s nothing more I hate than being cold. Yes, I know hate is a strong word. But I absolutely hate it! I know most males would disagree just because they all “hate” being hot. But I would rather be too hot than too cold. I feel helpless, dysfunctional, and feel like I can never get out of it! 

Lately, it’s been so cold my intestines hurt and my blood flow stops. But the thing is.. it’s going to get colder. -__- Dealing with frosted cars in the morning and having to wear too big of a jacket I can’t check my blind spot is how I try to manage the cold here. And my biggest worry in the mornings are: "What do I need to do so I'm not cold walking to my car? Is my car frosty? Should I scrape the ice or let it defrost?" Seems anal and tedious, but like I said... there's nothing I hate more than being cold. 

With all this weather approaching, it makes me excited for SNOWBOARDING SEASON! I haven't decided if I want to get a season's pass this year but we shall see. I've had one the past 2 years though. There's nothing I love more than snowboarding even though I suck. And for this one activity... I'm okay with my teeth clattering. 

Don't Justify

Everything in life is subjective. Okay, maybe not 100%. But most of the things in life are subjective. We all have our own opinions, thoughts, and justify it in our own brain to say "It's all good!" But once in awhile we fall into a pit that is not right, but do nothing about it. We know it's not right, we need to get out, we need to run, open another door, and book it. Yet we sit there and sulk in our own misery.

Next thing you know, the sulking we do brainwashes us to think it's okay now. The job you hated became "manageable." The relationship that was making you pull your eyeballs out is now "tolerable." The friend you had a problem with is "dissipating" by silence.

Over time we get used to things. Whether it's a new home, a new friend, a new facebook layout, an upgraded version on our iPhones or even the way Costco has their aisles organized. Over time, we get used to it. But this goes for even negative situations. We tell ourselves it's okay to be in this and/or feel this way that it becomes normal. Therefore why I hear girls say "It's okay, I got used to him yelling all the time." Or better yet, "It's okay he hits me. It's not like he's going to kill me." I think this is a right time to use this face --> O_O

It's funny how far we go to justify something because we are comfortable. Or even to not disappoint anyone. We brainwash ourselves in this negative energy that we turn it into "positive" energy. We become accustomed to something appalling it's gross. And over time, that grossness becomes normal.

Never settle for anything less than the best. Never sell yourself short. Never tell yourself you don't deserve the best. Never justify something to make it okay. When you think you've reached the best, strive for more.

Comfortable

Comfort. Who doesn't like it? It's that point where everything is all good and everything is in place where you want it to be. As an interior design student, the number one thing clients want from their home is "comfort." They ask for comfort, they want their space to be homey, and inviting. Who wants to live in a place where it's uncomfortable? That just sounds absurd.

When we get a locker at school/work, or a new cubicle/desk, the first thing we do is make it personal. We do this by adding our own pictures, statues or figurines, and arranging things in the way we like it. Why? To make it comfortable for us. And make it "who we are," that way that desk is screaming our name everywhere.

When we lie in bed, we scrounge, we shuffle the sheets, we flip our pillows to the get the right fluffiness to be comfortable. We can't seem to fall asleep until we find comfort unless we were at an amusement park for 13 hours screaming our lungs out. So wherever we lie our head will be good enough. Or, you're just me and fall asleep wherever, whenever. But we usually flip over backwards and forwards until we're comfortable.

But then there's a bad kind of comfort where we lose ourself in the comfort. Especially in relationships. Not just boyfriend/girlfriend, but even friendships. Where we become so comfortable we don't know how to draw boundaries, cross lines, and even go overboard with things we do/say. Or just ignore the discomfort we find in the comfort we have so much of.  What we do with the comfort we find shows where we'll end up.

You don't want to be so comfortable in your own home that you never clean, pick up, and wash dishes. You don't want to be so comfortable you stop dressing up for your significant other. You don't want to be so comfortable you stop caring about anything. Too much of anything is never good.

If you pay attention to your conversations with people, see how often someone says the word "comfortable" and what context it's in. It's surprising how we all desire it and what we do with it.

p.s. The most comfortable thing to me is having pillows all around me so I feel like I'm on a cloud and falling asleep when I'm not supposed to.

Something New

After traveling to New York and living the city life for just a brief 6 days, I have broadened my outlook on life. Not only that, but has shown me a lot of what I have been missing. Or… just showed me everything Seattle doesn’t have haha.

Being born and raised in Seattle has made me in the comfort zone. I like knowing where I am at all times, which coffee shop has the best americano’s, and know the back roads to every place during peak rush hour. The occasional freak out of feeling suffocated in 1 city happens once in awhile and I rage about wanting to move elsewhere. But Seattle is always, and no matter what, will be home. However, the world has so much to offer. I understand why my dad is always encouraging me to vacation different places, countries, and cities – you always learn something and grow as a person from it.

Even a New Yorker will say that the city offers too much for them to experience everything. I can definitely not say that about Seattle. -___- I know I’ll be here for another 2 years or so to finish up school, but my anxiety level of wanting to get out is becoming uncontrollable.

Wanting to know more about what else is out there, feeling lost, and meeting new people are the ingredients of growing up. And I believe that we all need to do this for ourselves and no one else. Or at least feel all of these at one point during this thing called life.

With that said, I can’t say how exciting, crazy, fun and hungover I was on this trip. Being a first time visitor and being skeptical of how great New York really is compared to what people say, I went on this trip with minimal expectations. And I came out with more than I had even fathomed. But the saying of “it’s not what you do, but who you’re with” that I always say comes into play. I went with Chris for his cousin’s wedding and ended up being with the Acabs majority of the time. And then being stuck on Staten Island due to Hurricane Irene made us into sardines in 1 little house.

The Acab’s have a great bond and it’s too bad everyone is all over the country. They have a great relationship with one another with their craziness. Are all Filipino families crazy? Regardless, I love Filipinos. I can never get away from them. 

Concrete jungle where dreams are made of definitely showed me there really is nothing you can’t do. Do yourself a favor and if you haven’t been to New York, take a visit!

I’m going to say this. But I love New York better than Vegas. Yes, I said it. :) 

Time Square 

Best Boy Friend

So today is this guy named Joel Acab's birthday. AKA Chris. Well, his middle name is Christopher and he just likes to go by his middle name. One of the reasons is cause people don't know how to pronounce his name correctly. I guess it's Jo-elle, and not Jole. -___-

He's finally 24 and I've been 24 for already 6 months. sigh... WTHECK CHRIS! sluffin haha

Anyway, let me just say all the annoying things about this guy. hahaha jk. But to be honest, I have to say he's my best boy friend. I never thought I'd have a best friend that's a boy... But I guess he fits the definition of what a best friend is. He's always there for me, gives me an honest answer, tells me how he feels about what I ask him, listen to me ramble about stupid crap, and will help me out whenever I need! Even though he's incapable of doing something! Not only that, but helps me be a better friend/person. Now, isn't that all you want from a friend? Oh, wait... 1 more. He gives me advice whenever I have a digestive problem haha! The soon-to-be-doctor tells me what's wrong me all the time. :)

He's always wanting to turn anything into a game to play. And adamant about teaching me Craps to a point where I don't want to learn anymore. Kind of like when he wanted me to like the show How I Met Your Mother so much I wanted to regurgitate. He wants to teach me so bad he printed out a Craps sheet apparently. haha! Fine, I'll learn it sooner or later for you, Chris. And we shall go to the casino and win big.

I know I can always turn to him. He's given me good advice and he's full of fun ALL THE TIME! So what can I lose from this guy? Minus the fact that he's not a girl and I can't always share everything with him haha! Although, I think he wishes I don't share some things with him.... He helps me see things from a different view and is always on the lookout for me. And always taking care of me. Not to mention super protective of me. He used the analogy as "Father being worried for his daughter" once. -__-

p.s. sorry for being a bitch sometimes and for dealing with it. :P love you chrissy poo!!!! haha 

I am a Giant Cheesecake

A lot of people say "You are what you eat" to help you manage your intake of "bad foods." Cause who wants to look like a giant piece of Big Mac? But this doesn't really stop me. :T It's bad, but I do try to be healthy. Actually, I eat lots of greens, veggies and fruits daily. But I guess I cave into ice cream, candy, sweets, snacks and smoothies too much so all that hard work of "being healthy" throughout the day is just tossed out the window. sigh...

So since we are what we eat... we are also who we surround ourselves with. Recently I've realized I'm unhappy at my work. A lot of factors come into play to feel this way (if I'm close enough to you, you've heard my stories).  I've managed for two and a half years to be here. I'm surprised at myself how long I've lasted!

Well, our workplace doesn't seem like a big deal but it actually is more than you think. Most of us are at our jobs minimum of 30 hours a week; that's 120 hours a month; 1440 hours a year! AT LEAST! We all have coworkers we dislike, hate, get annoyed of, and want to slam their heads into a wall... But we just roll our eyes and walk away (usually). Not only that, but the workplace affects who we are, how we feel, and our mood. I've decided to make a stern decision to quit one of my jobs because it's an unhealthy environment for me. I haven't had the guts to do it for so long but just like people say, "When you know, you know..." And I KNOW. Now is the time. Regardless of when I do it, my boss won't be happy. So why prolong it and make my heart race every time I work? (My heart is racing as I type this -- I have yet to quit. I will do it tonight haha. Or let's hope I do!)

Continuing on, positive and negative energy is so apparent that we miss it. Ironic, huh? We sometimes become oblivious to what we are always around that we get used to it. Even when it's bad, we think it's good. Or perhaps justify anything to make it a positive energy. Our friends show a reflection of who we are. Therefore surround yourself with who you are like and love to be with. Who you become when you're with people can show what kind of friends you have. Also, loving the person you become is very important as well.

Surround yourself with good people, good food, good music, and God. What more could you need in life? :)

Daddy's Right Again

I'll admit it. I'm Daddy's little girl. I do everything he tells me to do and I look up to him like no other. However, I have my share of talking back and pouting. Find it annoying, but I refer to him to everything. Well once again, I have come across something, and he's right.

Over my past Vegas trip, I lost a pair of sunglasses. I convinced myself I lost them being the clutsy person I am sometimes (and being under the influence). Well, these were my favorite! I wanted them again so bad I was about to buy another pair last week haha. But I thought, "is $640 worth a pair of glasses?" So I resisted myself and didn't get them.

Well, I won't list any names but I get a message from a close friend telling me she saw one of the girls that went on my Vegas trip wearing the same pair of glasses. O_O was her response when she saw them on her. Anyway, there's no hard evidence like the court would say. But what a coincidink that I lost my Chanel glasses and now she has the same pair? Oddly enough, she wouldn't stop saying how much she liked them.

My dad always told me to never trust even my closest friends cause you never know who will betray you. That in this world, it's me against everyone. This world is evil and there are horrible people out there. SO TRUE! (But would always say there are kind people. Just that there are more bad than good) I would have never thought a friend of mine would do that. But you know, that just shows her character and how low of a person she is. If I had it my way, I'd go over there, give her my 2 cents, and take it back. But I've woosa'd a lot and I will just let it slide and I'll let her have it.

Life advice my dad always told me and still tells me are:
Be on time.
Don't lie.
Respect elders.
Have a kind heart.
Love God.

And I've failed to do some of these. :( But I try to follow his life rules as much as I can. If I can find a man even a fraction of who my dad is, I couldn't ask for more! He's so selfless, giving, understanding, patient, humble and loving. I love him!

idk

It's been awhile since I've blogged. And there's 2 reasons. 1, I am super tired all the time and working everyday -___-. 2, I'm having writer's block. I guess I just have nothing to say or want to talk about.

I'm kind of at a point where everyday is redundant but not too repetitive where I go insane. I just want to go on trips all the time and do whatever I want. Is that bad? Anyway, I don't really care what the answer is... but I'm just doing whatever I want as I please. :D

The 1st thing on my mind everyday is NEW YORK!!! I can't wait to go. This is the least planning I've done for a trip and the cheapest trip, ever. I have planned nothing. The only thing I know I'm going to be doing is: Yankees game. And of course Serendipity! I may extend my trip another week for some other events but I haven't decided 100% on it yet. So we'll see about that..

I have been working like a mad woman because we are super short staffed at my work. Hmm... why don't we hire? My boss is super picky and it's hard to find someone up to par with her. But once I start school, my hours will be cut drastically whether she likes it or not. I just wanna finish school and be done!

This post is really pointless and I am all over the place. I should just sign out. BYE!

Before I really go... listen to this. I am loving it! :)

Back to Reality

Inhale, exhale. Woosa. After an insane weekend of hardcore partying in Vegas, back to work and everything else I'm supposed to be doing as my daily routine. But ... am I crazy for thinking that I want/could go back again this weekend? haha! Daily routine consisted of: wake up, drink, pool party, come back to hotel and nap, wake up, get ready, drink, go out, come back to the hotel and KO. 3 full days of powering through is how I managed to do it! Along with 7 other people.

Surprises and being spontaneous is the best part of life. We semi-planned this trip with some guys in San Francisco but didn't plan on being with them the whole time but ended up being together. And I have to say I have never found a bunch of guys funnier than them. Thanks, guys! (And for everything else) They sure don't act their age! :P

Well, I will admit Vegas is over-rated but once you get there, it's all fun and drunkenness. Everyone there is just trying to have a good time and enjoy life. It's kind of far from the reality we all live in; maybe that's why Vegas is so great? We can leave all that we have and put it on hold for the 3 days and act like there's no tomorrow. But after the 3 days pass, sigh... reality!

Wish we took more pictures with Nicole! And of us girls. 

They look cute/nice for once and not crazy. Minus Ed's face. 

Tao Beach!

This night Theresa didn't drink cause she felt sick. I think everyone had a night of feeling sick except me?

What a nice group picture! After Marquee Day Club.

The best reward of working hard is partying harder! Just live life and power through! :)

Time Will Tell

Time is a funny thing. Over time we find out a lot. We find if our friendships stand the test, if relationships last over the bickering, if we truly love the job we have, and even when things aren't worth our time. With time we heal, grow, and ache through this thing called life. And if you wonder if anything will work, time will tell. Over time we build stronger relationships, but some fall apart. We also find the great qualities about people and the ugly flaws. 

I watched this video about 2 months ago for the first time and I realized a lot of stuff. Everything the guy says is true and couldn't be more dead on. It made me smile but sad at the same time. Life ain't a fairy tale with rainbows and smiley faces all the time. I've been to every stage he talks about and makes me laugh out loud at some of the things. :) 

Do you ever watch movies and when people wake up from a night's sleep and look perfect? haha so unreal. As a kid I remember thinking, "how do they look the same when they wake up and when they're up during the day? Cause I sure don't." But over time, I realized it's just the entertainment industry. Random and not related to the topic of this blog haha but just wanted to say it. 

What is Love?

What is love? In this world we get love and lust mixed up. Or better yet, think anything "in the moment" can be "true love" -- we toss this word around like it's a hacky sack. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 couldn't be more dead on about what love is (click here to see the passage). It's cliche to be read at a wedding but it couldn't put it in a better way to describe love (The Bible is always right). And when true love is apparent, it's like "a town built on a hill cannot be hidden" (Matthew 5:14). Over the weekend, I witnessed the most beautiful couple that couldn't be more perfect that joined in harmony.

Hobey and Lea had an awesome wedding where I cried about 5 different times (or every time Hobey cried, I was there with him). I'm a hopeless romantic so anything that has to do with love will make me cry -- especially at weddings. When Lea walked down the aisle, I looked at Hobey the whole time and I couldn't help but see the true love he has for her. He's about to marry the most amazing/beautiful/funny/stubborn woman in the world that couldn't fit his palm better than anyone else. The start of the rest of his life with Lea is beginning and I could see it through his face shaking, inhale/exhales, looking up at the ceiling, and trying to contain himself. I realized at that moment how big their love was.

Now, going to weddings are my favorite. But it only made me look at myself more, and see where my stance is in this "love ladder." I am at the bottom and far from walking down the aisle, but I long for that moment just like any other girl. To be able to find that person I have a deeper love than skin, and to be able to share my uglies and pretties together; aka best friend.

I got some good advice from Annaliza and I can't agree more! Girls, if you're single, you'll go through phases of being crazy, feeling more lonely than a duck in the highway, then being okay with being that duck. When we're lonely, we want to search for that object to fill that void. But it just shows how not ready we are to be in a relationship. Once we become content, happy and prideful in being a sad duck is when we glow, and that is when we are ready to be in a relationship. Wanting to fill our loneliness is natural, but hunting for someone/thing shows how emotionally unstable we are. So, just be single, be sad, be that poor little duck crossing the highway, and before you know it, you'll shine like a star! :)

I've learned when you look for something, you never find it. Let it come gradually and let God do the magic. Don't shake the tree, just let the leaves fall. :)

 Lea was stunning! 

He's such a sweetheart ! 

Money dance! 

CONGRATULATIONS TO HOBEY & LEA UN! 

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Who's not busy these days? We all say we're busy but we make time for the ones we care about. No matter what, there's no excuse for not making time for the ones you love. Somehow, someway we can always make something work. Maintaining anything needs time, work, and effort.

So I've been going crazy lately. I don't work 12's like some people I know, or work crazy long hours. But I have been more busy! I've always been the "busy bee," but boy I've haven't even had time to sleep! Well, more like my body won't let me sleep. No matter what time I sleep, I wake up at least by 8am! --drives me CRAZY. Working two jobs isn't so bad, but this past week was finals week. So I think that drained me out even more. I've worked 12 shifts in 7 days. My main question is how am I still awake and functioning?

On top of 12 shifts and finals week, I had Father's day, my brother's high school graduation and Lea's bridal shower, too. (SO MUCH IS HAPPENING!) This has been the busiest I have been! Wait, I remember working 96 hours in 1 week once when I worked at Nordstrom and Flo, so I take that back. But now that I'm not 21 anymore, my body begs for mercy when I put myself through this.

Well, despite it all the hard work I'm doing, I guess it's summer? But where is it? I remember this time last year I was at Matthews Beach! But it's barely nice enough to get a jog out. I'm ready for summer! I don't want to worry about being cold walking to my car. And yes, now that the quarter is over... that is my biggest worry! Oh, and the gas prices going up.